I was riding my four-wheeler on a warm summer day down some dirt roads when I found the magazine. I found it at the Circle, a local spot for beer parties; it was just a clearing in the woods off a gravel road. I liked going there because I got to bust the beer bottles and see what was left over from the night before. That is when I found the magazine. It was faded out and the dew had gotten it but the pictures were clear enough for virgin eyes. Sadly I can still see the images; they captured my attention like nothing other. I remember hiding the magazine so that I could come back to it again, and I did for the next week. Then the Holy Spirit convicted me and I got rid of it and stuffed it into an old oil drum. That started my hunt for more hardcore pictures.

My father did a great job at preparing me to resist drugs and alcohol but he left me wide open to sex. Please do not get me wrong, my sin is on me not my father, however I do think I could have been more prepared. I remember sitting in the car and role-playing with him over drugs and alcohol. He would try to peer pressure me and call me chicken and helped me deal with what was to come in that area temptation. In fact we never talked about sex on any level in my house, and I think that fed my curiosity.

The bible says “… and never satisfied are the eyes of man.” – (Proverbs 27:20) This is true, from the age of 14 to the age of 28 my eyes have never gotten enough nude images; I have never been satisfied. Friend, reading this please understand this truth, sin will never satisfy you, whether it be lust, food, anger, greed, or any number of things. Sin lies to us and promises the same lie that Adam and Eve believed.

If you are a Christian then I call you to “seek the things that are above where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.” (Colossians 3:1-4) Believe me as a pastor who struggles believing the lie of lust, that I have never been satisfied with my sin but O, the joy of beholding Christ my Savior who loved me and gave himself up for me. That is a picture that is infinitely more beautiful than any pornographic picture.

Friend, will you ask God with me to show you a picture of Himself so beautiful that for once you are satisfied, at peace, and feel joy? Let us to that this week while we struggle with sin, what ever yours may be.

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Restoration Path is a Christian discipleship ministry that exists to restore those trapped in sexual and relational sin through the power of Jesus Christ. Through our online workshop, individual biblical counseling, support groups, custom Intensive programs, we seek to empower men and women to embrace their identity in Christ. Our passion is to encourage people to posture themselves to receive God’s healing in their deep areas of emotional wounding, learn to meet their relational needs in healthy ways, and make good choices that harmonize with their deeply felt moral convictions. We encourage you to browse our list of programs and contact us with any questions. Click here to read more ...

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